Some people, yes those dreaded "some" people, we all know some, anyway some people (I'm really making this up entirely because I haven't asked anyone at all) got discouraged and despondent after Tuesday the 15th, for electoral reasons among others.

I started feeling strangely right after the Miracle of Michigan. It was as though comprehending a win caused my mind to lose focus and then I felt lost.

Not the first time I've been scattered during Bernie Sanders' campaign.

There have been many times, almost weekly if I were to guess, where I just get lost in it all. I either get distracted by the corporate media or get too serious about my so called values and lose all my humor.

Things change so rapidly after experiencing those eternal moments where everything is clear. Odd.

Senator Sanders is gathering crowds of tens of thousands when he appears to speak out West. This causes cognitive dissonance in me because I'm being told he's just chasing unicorns or something.

It would be so much easier to comprehend if Senator Sanders had not decided to run for President.

We'd still all know that the game was rigged but we could still distract ourselves from that inconvenient reality.

Then Senator Sanders ripped the veil away and millions of us saw the reality of what corruption has done to our government in a way that even the strongest distractions no longer work.

In other words, I find I can still be distracted, but then that gets too painful and I find myself compelled to return to what I saw when Senator Sanders tore away that veil.

I keep stressing "Senator" because I find it easy to forget that Bernie Sanders is a sitting U.S. Senator. That means something even in a meaningless bought and paid for government.

It's painful to experience the powers arrayed against Senator Sanders and we the people. Each political moment reveals more of those powers. Some are frankly illegal but no one cares. Some are corrupt and still no one cares. Some are sideshows like Donald Trump and no one cares. Media, party machine, shadowy big money donors - one of the more recent distasteful experiences I had was over the meme that President Obama said something to the effect that it was time for Dems to unify around Hillary.

That President Obama was reported to have said that (later his "people" walked it back) wasn't what upset me.

It was that this was said to a closed door meeting with a group of donors.

Seriously. And that's just fine for the corporate media to report as though there were nothing at all wrong with that. That the President of the United States has to confer with big money donors over how a political party representing citizens should be run in order to stay in power. Not to come to the people, but to come to the donors. Ech.

Before this Primary campaign I wouldn't have been as nauseated by that fact.

But Senator Sanders' campaign has changed me in inherent ways. Certainly changed the way I view corruption.

Another creepy moment was when kos weighed in on the fabulous satire diary about the Hobbits and Gandalf, etc., banning the diarist, and in his explanation he compared Hillary to another LOTR character and outright admitted that character was corrupt.

Because that's ok. It's ok to be corrupt. That's the way it is. You can choose corruption with no consequence to your life and well being.

There have been a tsunami of these moments. It's not that it's new at all, this pack of lies. It's just that because of the Sanders campaign, I'm seeing it far more clearly, and that really sucks.

Then I think, well Senator Sanders has seen this for years and he seems to be ok, so there must be some way of confronting this unpleasant reality without going mad with grief and other negative feelings.

So I follow what happens in Senator Sanders' campaign. I get scattered a lot but really, it's too late for me to turn back now.